Had fun getting lost in videos people have uploaded of the JoCo Cruise Crazy that just happened. It’s the sort of thing I’d love to do, but also don’t necessarily feel like I want to do just as a passenger/participant. I would love it if Apocalypso were in a place to go as an actual group and entertain that kind of crowd with our kind of music, because they fit perfectly – nerdy music (particularly our relatively healthy set of Jonathan Coulton and They Might Be Giants covers) on pans on a cruise ship. It’s a duh all around. But I also realize I’m not really the kind of person who’d just want to join in on something like that just for the sake of it.
I find myself really embracing the fact that, at my core, I’m a performer. What I perform isn’t the important part, really, and sometimes not having a singular performing passion is actually my performing downfall. You can’t hit that tipping point of expertise if you thrive on being a jack of all trades and not truly specializing on only one thing. I vastly prefer participating in things with a performance element as a performer. Behind the scenes stuff is often good, too, but I really like the stage. I don’t think it’s ego, not entirely. It’s really just a true joy in entertaining others. Getting a laugh, a smile, an emotional reaction of any kind, that’s the charge.
On stage, Dog Brain hits the Csikszentmihalyi flow state, and that’s where I’m perfectly content and one with the universe (yeah, I said that, oh well). Squirrel Brain is the master of daydreaming about the possibility of places I’d love to perform (like the aforementioned cruise).
Featured image: palm trees. Because I’m thinking about the Caribbean and stuff.